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Another day when i don't know what to do with myself. Feel quite better than during past few days but still there's a voice in my head (not in schizophrenical idea ;P) that says 'you're already at the bottom and you can't go back'. All of you are saying that everything is about good thinking. I was thinking good 4 years and everytime when i was happy because my life was becoming better something just crashes and i was two steps behind. Maybe solution is just to get used to this situation. We'll see.